From the time we came home from the hospital without Harper we knew we would face a lot of questions from friends...acquantices...and co workers about her. However, you can never prepare yourself for how you might answer them. We tried to let everyone know what had happened...friends were good about telling others...both my boss and Dave's principal were good about telling our coworkers but of course some people were left out. How do you answer the question "how is the baby?"....Dave and I have both been asked...it almost takes your breath away. I can't even explain how it feels...I wish I could. We don't get upset at the person asking...they don't know...they feel bad and don't know what to say. I like to say she is my little angel....one day I will see her again.
This weekend has been hard...I don't know why this weekend in particular...I wish I did. I want to hold her and smell that sweet little baby smell and I can't....that is hard to accept. I try and stay busy and smile because I know that I have two miracles...two blessings here with us now. However, when people ask "How many children do you have?"...how do you answer...there is no way to prepare yourself for that. I was asked today at the Dermatologist office how many children we have by the new doctor. I hesitated and then said 2...I didn't even really know what to say...I don't know why I said 2...I have 3 children. I love to talk about Harper but I figured that he would ask a lot of questions and it would probably just end up ackward. It's not fair that I can't even answer a question the way my heart wants too.
Kendall took Harper's bear with her to school today for show in tell....she is so precious...she is so proud to have had a baby sister. The whole pregnancy she said that it was girl...oh the fun they would have had together. Landon always said that if it were a girl...he would have to watch 2 sisters dress up and play with baby dolls...he didn't think he could handle that...he is so funny. I hope Landon, Kendall and Harper know how much their mommy and daddy love them...they are all our little angels.
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