Overwhelmed....

So the feeling of being overwhelmed has taken over my body...there is so much going on which helps me deal with the pain of losing Harper. For one we are getting family pictures taken...we haven't had one in a while and were planning on getting them when Harper was born...however we knew that we needed to go ahead and have them done. It is more difficult than I thought it would be...she should be here now...healthy...happy...and as precious as her brother and sister. Thankfully Dave has a few weeks off from coaching...we seem to be doing a lot of running around. I am looking forward to all the things we have coming up but I am just having to deal with a few more emotions than I expected.

This poem is the sweetest most precious poem for a mother, the hospital sent it to me....I wanted to share it.

Oh mother/my mother

Oh mother, my mother
I touch your tears
invisible fingers
smoothing your skin
I know you think of me so often
in the day, in the night,
in your dreams
going into an empy nursey,
knowing I'll never be there
but I am...in your heart
in your soul, I shall always be
for you gabe so unselfishly
of yourself.
Inside of you, you created
such a world for me
a world of laughter, of love
of sadness, of sorrow
every emotion people come to know
you shared with me
And even though I may never
feel your arms around me
I felt your heart beating
like a lullaby, singing me to sleep
and your spirit giving me a safe haven
already protecting me
nurturing me
preparing me of things to come.
But sometimes the journey
of life pulls souls apart
and yes, I had to go on
to another place.
I wish I could stay
I wish this was a decision
I could make
and I know you do too.
Know this wherever you are:
I will always remember
that yours was the first love
the first joy, the first soul
I will ever know
you gave me the courage to
go on in my journey
I hope I can do the same
for you
Your heart will always
call me to you.
Love, your child

I don't know who wrote this...but I love it...I cry everytime I read it..but I need to look at it at times. I have been exercising and crafting a lot at night to help my mind stay with good thoughts. I will be posting some pictures soon of projects I have been working on.